For the past few months (really a lot longer than that) I have had this undescribable feeling, deep inside, that God was calling me to do something big. Bigger than myself. Something that would further the Kingdom of God in this world.
That being said, I have no idea what He is calling me to do.
I do know that it is not at my work. As a matter of fact, I am increasingly feeling that I may be in the wrong place as far as work is concerened. Don't get me wrong, I have a tremendous job. Great pay, wonderful co-workers and bosses, and I love what we do. I just have an inkling that God could use me somewhere else.
I have numerous people praying for me (and Robyn, she is feeling a tug too) that Jesus will reveal His desires of where I can do His will. When that moment comes I want to believe that I will jump up and move.
That would mean dropping my life, and everything in it, to go where He asks.
Would I?
Would you?
I'm going to drift away from my normal blog to post a blog I happened upon that struck me as fantastic.
Sarah Schrack is a young lady who is a true follower of Jesus. This is how I want to be. Check out her blog at sarahschrack.theworldrace.org
Sarah
Two years ago, I took a literal step of faith. I got onto a plane that took me to New Zealand to start my World Race. I was petrified. I didn’t want to go. But I took that first physical step. Last year, I took another step of faith, once again onto a plane.
This time, bound for London. A couple months later, I got on another plane heading for Africa to squadlead. And tonight, I take yet another step of faith onto yet another plane as I head for London to intern with Burn 24/7.
I go because “the kingdom of God is not a matter of talk but of power (1 Corinthians 4:20).” I am so willing to say I trust God. So willing to surrender everything in theory. But His Kingdom isn’t about talk. It’s about those physical steps of faith.
Esther couldn’t just say “Mordecai I feel really bad for you.” She had to act, risking her life to go before the king and save the Jews.
David could have just said, “Oh hey look at that huge giant. Someone should do something about him.” But he didn’t.
Peter didn’t just believe Jesus was the One on the water; he got out of the boat and walked to Him.
The past year of my life has been all about that. All about that trust in action, not just words.
Because at the end of the day, it comes down to one thing. Do I believe Jesus?
Not just that He said some nice things, not just that He saved me from Hell. Do I believe that He’s sovereign in my daily life? That He loves me more than I love myself? That He actually knows best? I gotta tell you, I’ve been saying I believe those things for years.
But talk is cheap.
It’s easy to say we trust Him when things are good. When we got that new job or that new boy or that perfect dream opportunity. But what about when He tells you to do the one thing you’re petrified of and can’t imagine overcoming? To quit your job, break up with your boyfriend, give thousands of dollars away, move to a foreign country that you don’t even want to visit? When you’re out on the water and Jesus seems a heckuva lot farther than the boat, what are you gonna do?
The Kingdom of God is coming. It’s here. It’s sweeping over nations. God is pouring out His Spirit (Joel 2:28). But God is longing for us to partner with Him in it. And that takes power, not just talk. That takes believers believing God at His word and acting and trusting accordingly, no matter how petrified we are.
I want to still trust Him even as the boat drifts away. I want to be the kind of Christ follower that Esther and David and Peter would be proud to call sister. I want to be a woman of power, not just talk.
3 comments:
I'm praying for you every day brother. Her blog sounds pretty cool. She sounds extremely young, but what does age have to do with it? Not a thing, when you feel it, that's it. You just know it.
This is very well written, and the way I understand it is that even tho you follow Gods word and direction, it is still very uncertain where it is going to lead you. You will always have him with you, but he lets you take the stern, kinda, to see how deep your trust is. He will always believe in you and be there.....as he wants in return. I do love God, and I try to be the best I can, but sometimes I feel like I fall short. You just have to follow his words and your heart...he will take you where he needs you.
Holy Cow brother Dan....do not do anything rash...I want to be the voice of reason here...I think theoretically its posible to do what she is doing, but it is easier to do when you are 22 and have no responsibilities. I am not going to pretend to understand the calling of God, however I do understand the responsabilities of being a citisen of our country, and it cost money to do it. I am seeing a theme to your past few posts, and each one gets more detailed about your percieved feelings of a calling from God, and you have to discerne between actual callings from god and your desire to be a better christen servent of the lord....Just trying to keep it real...as any big brother should....btw ...I am very proud of your christen faith!
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